Ask Jordyn (Part 3) -Where is Your Identity Found

Welcome back. We will be continuing with the Ask Jordyn series today. Enjoy 

[00:00:00] Jordyn Ruiz: Those thoughts. In your mind behind all that is this sort of non-thinking presence. And, you know, we see it a lot in like ancient, ancient texts. And that, like once you realize this, it's sort of like a way to transcend and, you know, be free of certain sufferings and like attachments to the world, for example, I'm Christian.

[00:00:22] And so I believe in Jesus and Jesus often talks about the kingdom of heaven, right? And it's this realm beyond our understanding and it's that it's that dimension and, you know, for made in the image of God it's within us. And so I came to these conclusions, like I am a child of God that lives in me in my value and where I'm going to put my identity now is not going to be an external things.

[00:00:46] It's going to be in the God. I know that lives with me. And that I am a microcosm of. And so it was a complete restructuring of who I was and that process took [00:01:00] time. It took tears, it took sleepless nights. It took me, you know, me really like a lot of journaling conversations with other people who I trusted to realize that what I was putting so much value in was not important.

[00:01:17] Really, what was important is how my relationship was with God. And in terms of the relationship with myself and the people in my life that were in my inner circle. And anything else is just like maybe some cherries on the, on a Sunday. But ultimately the pandemic allowed me to get to this point. I don't think if this had didn't happen and I didn't have this experience, I would still be the anxiety ridden ego.

[00:01:46] Minded person going through my life, trying to get some sort of unsatiable position or something in life to satisfy myself, which would be ultimately futile. And so like, I'm actually very [00:02:00] thankful even though this process was very gruesome and it was very hard psychologically, I'm actually very thankful for it because now I'm 23 and I can operate now in it's such a better mindset than I was like, I can't imagine if I had this experience later in life.

[00:02:17] And then I would, you know, have all these years just like gone, in some ways, like I woke up, like I woke up to what I know that was more fundamentally important in this life. And so I think that's a major component for me that I can attribute, you know, years from now I can look back and be like, that was a turning point.

[00:02:35] That was. Actually like the most important thing I could adapt for myself was to give myself time to be alone, not just for, you know, health reasons. It was important to isolate quarantine. I took that very seriously. But also as an individual, I recognize this novel opportunity, a very unique one to sort of look at yourself with your traumas, look at [00:03:00] what you need to, you know, in any internal dialogue you need to fix up now is the time.

[00:03:05] And so it changed thing. You're never the same person like who I was even just a few seconds ago. Like you're different fundamentally as you go through time. But I think definitely a big 180 and just how I viewed the world is so different. There's a quote by Heraclitus I really like it's no man ever steps in same river twice

[00:03:25] or it's not the same river and he's not the same map. So you go through life and you're constantly changing and might as well recognize that and, and change in a trajectory that you can be proud of. 

[00:03:38] Tuoyo Eresanara: Hmm. Wow. That is very beautiful.